Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Im scared i'll lose you......
Yknow , every night i cried to sleep . Every night before both of us go to bed , we will either call / text each other sweet goodnight msges . After every call / text goodnight msges , both of us promise to go to bed together and sleep at the same time . I dreaming of you , and you dreaming of me . Whenever there is a bad dream , i will straightaway wake up and the first think that came into my mind is to call you because im scared . Everytime i had a bad dream , i straightaway wake up , called you and you will always comfort me . "Im here baby . Im here for you . Dont worry . Everything is gonna be fine babylove . Go to sleep now alright , i love you . " I am too confort by you and i cant even imagine what i am gonna be when youre not around anymore . I dont even want to imagine how it will without you in my life anymore . But sadly we gonna be far apart .
"It is better for us to be far away from each other rather than be apart , right baby ?"
I teared immediately when you say that to me . I still just cant accept the fact you gonna be far away from me . How am i gonna live alone ? Stranded alone without you by myside ? What is going to happen to me if something happened to me ? I cant contact you ! I would rather be slaved alive rather than facing the reality thats gonna happened in the future . Everynight i cried to sleep . Everynight before i go to sleep , i will look at our pictures and cried . Tears cant stop everytime i think of you , about whats gonna happened to us . Why must it be the one facing this ? why must you go ? why cant you stay ? why must be you ? Why must you leave ? Whats gonna happened to us later ? No communication , hard to meet , whats going to happened ? Moreover im facing a major paper next year in my life and my future is depended whether i succeed in my life or not . Why must at this particular time you must go ? Why why ? Why you ? Everynight i pray for you , begging to god for you to stay . Done let him go far away from me .
I just got more to write but i think thats enough because enough tears had rolled down .
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I teared immediately when you say that to me . I still just cant accept the fact you gonna be far away from me . How am i gonna live alone ? Stranded alone without you by myside ? What is going to happen to me if something happened to me ? I cant contact you ! I would rather be slaved alive rather than facing the reality thats gonna happened in the future . Everynight i cried to sleep . Everynight before i go to sleep , i will look at our pictures and cried . Tears cant stop everytime i think of you , about whats gonna happened to us . Why must it be the one facing this ? why must you go ? why cant you stay ? why must be you ? Why must you leave ? Whats gonna happened to us later ? No communication , hard to meet , whats going to happened ? Moreover im facing a major paper next year in my life and my future is depended whether i succeed in my life or not . Why must at this particular time you must go ? Why why ? Why you ? Everynight i pray for you , begging to god for you to stay . Done let him go far away from me .
I love him now, And i'll love him till forever. The closest thing i have now, is the dreams of him. He is my bestfriend. He is my lover . He is my life . He is my pillar of strength. He is my everything , forever . Im gonna miss very little thing we do. Im gonna miss every lil' thing of us. Im gonna miss you so much. Do you?
I love you, Baby.
I love you undyingly.
I love you.
I just got more to write but i think thats enough because enough tears had rolled down .
