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I could’ve chose not to be hurt,
I could’ve chose not to be like this,
I could’ve chose to be free.

But I still chose you,
because you make me happy.
You make me feel special.
You make me feel loved.

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I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
And I swear like the shadow that's by your side

I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure I know my heart

`Coz I'll stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart

And I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
I'll be there
I swear like a shadow that's by your side
I'll be there

For better or worse, till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear

I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the walls

And when just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
`Coz as the time turns the page, my love won't age at all

And I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there

For better or worse, till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear

I swear (I swear) by the moon and stars in the sky
I'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there

For better or worse, till death do us part
I'll love you with every (single) beat of my heart
I swear, i swear, oh... i... swear...


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Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujimu

Disetiap langkahku
Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

[Reff:]
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna... Sempurna...

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

[Reff:]
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna... Sempurna...

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku



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I was browsing profiles in Myspace/Facebook ranging from design students to party people to gig goers to hxc dancers to breakdancers to perfect couples to blah blah blah. Cut the crap. Main point is, I realised that somehow, at times, I do envy those couples. Not referring to the couple shared-profiles, but to those individual profiles belonging to some sweet couples. Be it the female or the male party, both did mention each other in their about me etcetera. Even if it’s just one word. I’ve always wanted to see my name in the someone special’s profile. But ever since back then, the lucky guy I was with have always been those into ‘discreet/low-profile relationships’. Till now.

Just my luck, prolly? I don’t think I’ll ever feel the joy of feeling ‘special seeing my name written there, and knowing that the special someone isn’t embarrassed to claim me as his’. Actually, all this thoughts came to me when I was checking my dusty MS, and having nothing better to do, I profile-hopped my topfriends, which of course includes my bby’s profile. I won’t deny that I did feel a tinge of disappointment (altho I felt that all those while when I was still active in MS).

But oh well. I understand his situation from his past experience. Just so yknow, whatever it is, I still love you to the hardcore max WIRA DANDIAR. Hugkiss² to you if you ever read this <3

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than getting perfect grades, going to university and getting a high-paying job. You’ll probably die rich, but not die happy. And I wonder why is it so hard to be happy. Here I am falling short of expectations simply because I don’t want to follow that route, no matter what people say. I haven’t got the heart to do things I don’t want to do. Yet it seems like everyone is made to think that you’ve got to have a degree of sorts, get a stable job before you’re considered successful or even making something out of your life. What if I want something more than that? Something more than just a degree or a job people will nod their heads in approval at? I sortof am tired trying to be what they want me to be. You can’t live your life to make others happy right? Not when it’s the rest of your life you’re talking about. Yet there has to be something more, something more than this. I need to find some meaning in life. Need to. Want to. Have to. Got to. _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

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At two in the morning, she decided for the plunge. Water got caught in her lungs as soon as she frantically wallowed through the sea for air. The liquid surrounding her weak self felt cool against her skin. The lower surface was closing in on her, gravity helping in the dirty work as well. She didn’t need a lifesaver. If only you could see that she needed you instead, mister. _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

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You know , i better start enjoying life now .
Gonna paint my nails red plus polka dots . How cute . Then after meeting family to Expo .
Oh wells .


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And i wondered till now,
How the littlest acts of yours could be the source of my happiness. _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
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• Fine - This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use “fine” to describe how a woman looks - this will cause you to have one of those arguments.

• Five Minutes - This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the rubbish, so it’s an even trade.

• Nothing - This means “something”, and you should be on your toes. “Nothing” is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. “Nothing” usually signifies an argument that will last “Five Minutes” and end with “Fine”.

• Go Ahead - At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble.

• Go Ahead (With Raised Eyebrows) - This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over “Nothing” and will end with the word “Fine”.

• Go Ahead (Neutral Expression) - This means “I give up” or “do what you want because I don’t care” You will get a “Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead” in just a few minutes, followed by “Nothing” and “Fine” and she will talk to you in about “Five Minutes” when she cools off.

• Loud Sigh - This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A “Loud Sigh” means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over “Nothing”.

• Soft Sigh - Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. “Soft Sighs” mean that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.

• That’s Okay - This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. “That’s Okay” means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. “That’s Okay” is often used with the word “Fine” and in conjunction with a “Raised Eyebrow”.

• Please Do - This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be careful and you shouldn’t get a “That’s Okay”.

• Thanks - A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say you’re welcome.

• Thanks A Lot - This is much different from “Thanks.” A woman will say, “Thanks A Lot” when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the “Loud Sigh.” Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the “Loud Sigh,” as she will only tell you “Nothing”.

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There’s no such thing as in-betweens.

Days like these, I feel like I’m an empty shell. And I don’t know how much I can keep letting you unravel me. We were worlds apart as you can see. Cause now I know what we can’t have and it’s so unfair.

Time can never mend the careless whispers of a good friend. To the heart and mind, ignorance is kind. There’s no comfort in the truth, stop telling me how pretty a lie can be. We’re so condemned to believe that love is a myth.

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I love you. I love your eyes. I love your smell. I love your hair. I love your laugh. I love your skin. I love everything inside you. And I'll try to make all the parts that I find, happy. Because you make me happy. So much. _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________


So finally i found the beret that i have been searching all this while. I found this blogshop and finally they have the burete i wanted all this long . So whenever i have a bad hair day , god that burete will save me! I wanted the dark blue but then there is no more stock . But grey is fine . :D It matches with anything tho , right ? That beret is hot maynz! haha . Imma happy happy girl! wooo! :D


Anyway , yeah . Ive been busy with things alot lately . And my blogshop is still under construction . Photoshoot on monday and will update the blogshop by monday too . So on tuesday is ready spread the blogshop . I need $$$$$$ ! Gosh . I really need to search for a job soon . I need to get my hair done ! My hair needs updates too . Haha , wth . -.-!


Anyway , gosh i miss baby!
Ehhhh i miss rara + my girls too lehhz! Bila mau jumpe !? Nyeeeeeeeekkk . Hopefully the trip to Escape Theme Park on December everyone will turn up . _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

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Our 9th monthsary is coming in 4more days and i still do not know what should i get for baby!!!!!
OMG !

Anyway , yesterday night baby and i had this conversation . See this......


Baby: Im gg to johor for kahwin . 3days taw baby .
Me: Huh!? You nak kahwin !?!?
Baby: eh i mean ada perkahwinan . My sedara nye . hahahaha nak kahwin eh . I cuma nak kahwin dengan baby je .
Me: Ye ke ? Why me ?
Baby: Yes baby . Because i know you will stay w me forever . :)
Me: aawww baby! :) Hehee


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This is the girl . Thats the guy .



Just know that , I hearts Wira Dandiar .
Thats all you need to know . :D

• Girl: Your new girlfriend is pretty. (I bet she stole your heart)
• Boy: Yeah, she is. (But you’re still the most beautiful girl I know)
• Girl: I heard she’s funny and amazing. (All the stuff I wasn’t)
• Boy: She sure is. (But she’s nothing compared to you)
• Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now. (Like how you knew just about everything about me)
• Boy: Only the stuff that counts. (I can’t even remember the stuff she tells me when I think of you)
• Girl: Well, I hope you guys last. (Because we never did)
• Boy: I hope we do too. (Whatever happened to me & you?)
• Girl: Well I got to go. (Before I start to cry)
• Boy: Yeah me too. (I hope you don’t cry)
• Girl: Bye. (I still love you)
• Boy: Later. (I never stopped)

I have been MIA-ing myslef from the world . My holidays are full with boyfriend only . I know yguys will be thinking , "omg, hidayah is so crazy of her own dude . " =.="! gold please , so what ? haha . Ive not been contacting any of my friends , which includes bestfriend and Krisha . Not meeting my girls and my other friends . But yknow , im lovin' it . I mean , not lovin' it that i am missing myself from my friends but im lovin' my holidays because almost everyday i spent my day with the boy . But hey , i dont even get bored that i meet boyfie everyday . Not everyday laa . But almost everyday . Hehe .

Anyway , next saturday i might going out with naddy . Girls , who wanna join ? Hehe . And yeah , the escape theme park plan is still on okay! And idk where my bitches gone to . Haha . I bet Eshaa is away at Philipine . And Krisha i'll get to here soon . Okay kris! hehe . And what more ? Bestfr ! I neeeeeeed to meet you! Catch things uppppp! Where are you !? Damn . So mhmkay .

And oh yeah , i got another job offer . It is $8/ hr , being a retail promoter and it is daily paid . You can choose what time to what time you wanna work and what day to what day you wanna work . Its pretty easy . Boyfie working with me too . Yay! hehe . And they will place us at a shop that is near to our living place . I think baby and i will take up this job . Plus today is the interview . Anyway , those who are interested in this job too , and you are at least 14-21 age , you can still apply for it because the company still in need of manpower . Hurry , joinnnn ! Its worth it ! hahaa


Nowwwwww , im waiting for boyfie to end his soccer . grr !


Okay , its been looooooooooooong since i did a proper post .

Back to Thursday .
Thursday

Last thursday basically went out with baby + cherry + Fiqq + Aie + Maie . It was fun :D Aie really light up the day with his nonsense with cherry and Fiqq . HAHA . Really . So i went to meet baby at my apartment , then we head to Pasir Ris MRT to meet cherry , fiqq and aie . Head down to Bugis and had our lunch at Banquet , Raffles Hospital . I had my Chicken Black Pepper . Niceeeeee! Then after we walked around the bugis junction and stuffs . Aie , cherry and Fiqq was reallyyyyy in the mood to shop. But baby and i just chilled . Haha! Then head down to Iluma , nothing much . But we bumped into Musaa ! Omg , he's working there . haha! Then walked around and i saw this one bikini , sooooo hottttttttttttt ! Red colour some more ! Omg , i cant resist mayn! I reallyyyyyyyy wanted to buy it , but like of course no money! =.="!

So sedeh . *sobs sobs*
Then all of us planned to watch Paranormal Activity movie , but Fiqq wanna watch Astro Boy . =.="! HAHAHA . So we didnt . Then head down to Mozzi , had sisha . woooo nice baybeh! Thennnn Maie joined us after awhile .Laugh here and there . And they started to talk about prom . Theres one conversation fucking funny !


Cherry: Tapi kite nye prom best gila!
Maie: Korang takda prom eh ? *refers to aie & fiqq*
Aie: ada ah tapi kene bayar brape eh Fiqq ? Aku lupe . Kite nye prom kat mana tu... ahhh Raffles Hospital .
All: HAHAHAHAHA , raffles hospital puhh! hahahha
Aie: eh raffles place la . raffles hospital eh hahhahaha
Cherry: hhhahaha Orang sakit kat sane , kau kat situ best-best joget-joget . Hahaha! Nanti patient sume terikut . Beh beh kalau orang pengsan , "DOCTORRR , FAINT FAINT!" hahahahahha
Maie: hahahahah a'ah sia . Beh makan buffet pat Banquet . hahahaha


Me and baby laugh like non-stop ah . Especially cherry & Maie . hehe . At around 8+ pm , we went off from there . At the junction road facing the Raffles hospital , Cherry went "Eh raffles hospital! HAHAHA" And we all went laughing . Sumpah kelakar . hhahaaha . At the bugis MRT station , went seperate ways . Aie , fiqq , cherry and maie went other places while me and baby went to Bugis Junction . Bought famous amos cookies and head back home . In the train had a lil misunderstanding with baby for a short awhile and we get over it . We walked from WS to my apartment just to have a longer time together . Reached at my apartment , we bid goodbye with hugs & kisses . :D




I wanna have this with baby! :D GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

when you love someone, you give them more than just your heart. you give them your lips, your hands, your body and your soul. you give them every part of you that you know they could break, but trust that they won't. you give them the parts of you that they can not only hold in the hands, but also in their hearts. you love them properly, painfully and beautifully.

• Girl: What would you do if one day, I died?
• Boy: Why?
• Girl: Just answer...
• Boy: Well, I'd find a way to join you.

Aww. Really breaks my heart

The greatest ! I wanna have my honeymoon sleeptime here . :D
Wonderful!

And everyday you did .

To my baby , thats for you too . (:

“Well that’s what we do, we fight… You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you’re back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.”—“So what?”—“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What’s it look like? If it’s with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that’s what you really wanted. But don’t you take the easy way out.”—“What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.”—“Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do you want? What do you want?”—The Notebook (2004)

It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.

"When we love, we always strive to become better
than we are. When we strive to become better than

we are, everything around us becomes better too."

To my sweetheart , thats for you . (:

In every ways.

This is what you call love. ♥

YES , MY BABY! :D

"I was perfectly happy killing myself but then
you asked me to try, and for the first time
in my life it felt like someone actually gave

a shit, and that person was worth trying for."




It's worth for you .

No , im not . Im only good when youre with me . Stay please .

I really didn’t. I love you, Wira.

I just need that now .

“Dear diary, I made it through the day. I must’ve said ‘I’m fine, thanks,’ at least 37 times and I didn’t mean it once. But no one noticed.”


Nope , no one notice . No one notice .

But everynight i teared and the first roll is from both side , because i miss you .

HAPPY 9MONTHS LOVE ! :D

Though youre far away from me , i still felt excited at night . Well , Im still waiting for your return . Come back soon baby! Cant wait to spent a day w you again . A belated one should do . (:

I love you. I love your eyes. I love your smell. I love your hair. I love your laugh. I love your skin. I love everything inside you. And I'll try to make all the parts that I find, happy. Because you make me happy. So much.


♥ you !

I just realize so .

Yes , my baby!
Im feeling shivering cold right now . :(

Sweet sia! HAHAHA . But 3days w/o him . A day w.o him already feels like hell . :(

Gosh!

Hiiiii . this is my boyfriend. he makes me smile. he likes to eat my food. he likes to sleep . he likes to play games.

but best of all, he loves me.

By month:

1. October 2009
2. November 2009
3. December 2009